We were "daring" and made it to the Hancock Christmas party. I am glad we did, Carson LOVED Santa and did not let any other kid get 2 seconds in with Santa with out him standing guard. There was only 5 other kids there.
After that we headed to Grandma Gaylene's, she gave the boys their presents and they loved them. They got Mickey mouse, 4 wheelers, and some play guns. :)
We headed home early Carson as beat. He was worn out. Plus we had to get up early to get Carson's blood drawn. He did not want to wake up. But was happy when I told him he could ride in the front seat to the hospital. He sat up like a brave little boy and helped the nurse like always.
The past week has been more than rough. I have struggled more than ever. I am not sure if the holiday's or if since things have slowed a bit, that I have more time to think about the "what if's" and it has all caught up with me. I have to remind myself that each day is a blessing. To not take it for granted and to be as happy as I can be. I know 3 years will go by quickly. Christmas time is a time to be joyful, and thankful for everything we have, even the small things like smiles and hugs, an someone to lean on in the most difficult times. I was not happy about Carson having Chemo on Christmas eve. I worry he will be sick, or not feel good, and not enjoy the day as much as I hope he will. Cancer sucks, but having a child with Cancer sucks even more. There is nothing I can do to fix it, nor is there anything I could have done to prevent it, it isn't like I could have, should have, would have, done something different. I wish I could go through all of this myself, but I know I wouldn't be as brave as Carson is. There is no way, I would crumble. There is no way I would want to leave the house or even talk to anyone, but he does, he wants to enjoy each minute even if it is laying in bed, watching Mickey with daddy.
This pas week 4 families have gotten some "bad" news. I am thankful we continue to get + news. My heart breaks for the other families and my prayers are for them. That they can find peace in the journey they are on, and us as well. I am reminded when I get down that many families have it worse, and many families are out of options, we aren't; I am so thankful for that. I hope and pray for peace for the families who are.
We have been more than blessed with people helping us this year, it has been rough year for our family. I can't say thank you enough to those who have helped us, especially Low Book Sales, Universal Industrial Supply, and many many family and friends. We could not have gotten through it with out each of you. As we prepare to celebrate Christmas I hope you all know how much each of you mean to us, and that we are so grateful to have each of you in our lives. We wish every one a Merry Christmas!!
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