The River...

Carson update! He got Mitts. I have no clue what they are really but we used some medication to clear them up. He doesn't have IV Treatment Till the End of July we have some great family plans that we are planning and wanted him to feel his best, so he could enjoy the time, and enjoy time with the whole family!

He got Chemo and did pretty well with this round. Steroids SUCKED for him, but he did amazing! 13 more months! I can not wait to have a BIG NO MORE CHEMO party for him Next July! Seriously A BIG ONE! 

Strawberry days! Our home town Rodeo, Carnival, and celebration!  I got a video of him riding, but can't figure out how to load it to the computer! when I do I will post it. 

Ms. Rodeo Utah let him sign his chaps, and gave him a pair of his own. He loved them! :) This is The Rodeo Royalty of Utah. 

He rode in our rodeo again... He did great, but I think he was too big for the sheep because the sheep dropped right out of the chute, pissing him off! He no longer would like to ride sheep, only calves. REALLY? I am not sure about that but we will follow whatever dream he has. 

Him and Daddy! 

There is an amazing story that goes along with this, each year Tough Enough To Wear Pink honors those who are fighting cancer, they ride with the saddle empty, this year they filled it with a fighter, my fighter, my son, my hero! There wasn't a dry eye in the house, we were beyond thrilled with how well Strawberry Days Rodeo committee HONORED our little one! 

After he got off the horse, the Announcer was saying a prayer we stopped to pray, and I looked down and seen him holding his hat, and closing his eyes, while the announcer prayed for the cowboys.

I have posted before of how music helps me get through this journey. Since I was little Garth Brooks has been an favorite of mine, I kind of have a obsession with his music and him. 

The song the River has been for me a life Anthem. No matter the issue, I am now more than ever a believer that we are given trials, victories and everything in between for reasons beyond our understanding. I refuse to stand on the shorelines and let the water slip away, "never knowing what's in store 

Makes each day a constant battle"  "there's bound to be rough waters  And I know I'll take some falls with the good Lord as my captain I can make it through them all"   These lines are my favorites. With the good lord as the captain we will make it through all of it; but we choose how we make it through, and we choose happiness. We choose to fight with a positive attitude, does cancer such HELL yes it does, but that doesn't mean we have to be down and out about it. We need to stay positive and make sure that we are helping others along the way. 

    Carson doesn't understand what cancer is, we as his parents choose to not let him understand it, one day he will one day we will explain to him why he is our hero, we will explain to Blake his brother why he is also our Hero, but until they are older, much older I hope they won't ask what cancer is, I won't have to tell them the reality of it all. 

I choose to help other families, I love helping them. It for one keeps me busy, and lets me give back a small part of what has been given to us. Yesterday was the 6th annual Ride the Brainwave event. I helped in a small way put this amazing event on. I love it. 55 families helped, 55 kids/parents suffering from some kind of serious illness, or are angels in heaven. 

These were released for our Angels. Carson loves to send balloons to heaven, (he sends any and all balloons to his Grandpa Dan(who passed away 13 years ago due to cancer) He remembers what colors he has sent him.) We released these to all the Angels we have gone too soon. We remember them, and carry them in our hearts. 

This boy also got to ride in ONE FAST TRUCK! He was over the moon I was a good 5 feet away from the truck carrying him and he was jumping out of my arms to jump into the truck. He couldn't get in fast enough. They said the guy burned the tires all the way down the street, Rev'd the engine, this was music to this little boys heart, anything boy, he is all over. 

This is an awful picture but I am in the back, standing with one great friend Lara, who lost her child to cancer, who I love dearly. Plus Carson has a smile of his on... he was on a mission. 

These sweet girls came out and supported my son, even though their own mom just had surgery the day before, to get her port and begin her battle against cancer. These are Brant's cousins, we love them! 

He did a Tea Party, it was fun for him, hey it was food and wonderful people in costume! :) 

Blake wasn't able to go with us to this awesome event due to an eye injury his brother hit him with a stick and got him in the eye, causing bleeding in it. So he stayed with his Aunt and Uncle and enjoyed his day to play with them! His eye is healing well, and is looking better each day. 

While I love Children and The Earth who put on The Brain wave, and Will always have them at heart, and will always help and give back.... I am also starting to help another charity that is dear to us here in Utah Mascot Miracle Foundation. I will continue to carry on my Anthem WE REFUSE TO STAND ON THE SHORELINES, we WILL do GREAT things, WE will NOT stand BY while the WATERS slip away. :)