The climb

I find much comfort in music as do my boys. We sing and dance all silly, Carson even has his favorite songs, and also tells us what songs are ours, based on album art. 

So as the past few days have came and gone, I have been more than over whelmed with emotions. Anxiety being off the charts, fear, questioning do I really want the answers that we will get? What if they change our whole world again? Can we handle it? As I was driving home alone this song came on. I had  a second where I thought, the journey of life; I am always worried about a what will happen when we get over this trial? What will we do? 

I had to take a step back. It isn't about what is waiting for us on the other side, it is the journey, the long hard never ending road it seems; but it is the journey that makes us.

Carson will be who he is because of cancer, because of his air way, because of the way we have raised him and because of things around him.

Of course this doesn't make the fear, the anxiety, the worry go away. If anything as the days go by the more intense the emotions get. Of course I put on the brave face. I try to not let it show, I hold it all in. Because If I let him see I am worried, he is worried, and if he is worried it is worse. So we are on the "Climb" of our life. We are on our journey to where ever it is we are heading. I believe there is a bigger picture, a plan for each of us. A plan that is much bigger than we may ever know in this world.