Here goes the next 10 weeks...

The next 10 weeks will be hard for Carson. Hard for our whole family. I pray he will not be in pain, or too sick to still be a little boy.  He has been so brave. The boy is a pro at going for treatment.  He helps the nurses give him his treatments, and is always willing to show them the dinosaur that lives in his mouth(aka when they are checking for mouth sores he grawls at them super cute) The nurses love him and always say that he looks great, and that is such a "BIG BOY" something I have heard from day one. He was never a "baby" he has always been our "big boy" tipping the scales and always being in the 90% on the charts.

Mickey Rode on his lap the whole way to the hospital. He had to share his blanket with Mickey.

 

 

We asked the Child Life Specialist Rachelle(who is amazing by the way) to let Carson play doctor and give Mickey a port. He was so excited to do so, and was happy to give Mickey medicine and also take his blood. :)  

Carson no longer likes to wear shoes, he prefers to wear slippers, Lighting McQueen ones to be exact. He loves them.

I ran to Costco to get a few things, and Carson saw a LIFE SIZE Minni Mouse and about did a head dive out of the cart to get to it. I carried it around the store till I could find more. Thank Goodness they had Mickey. Both boys got one and both of them LOVE them! They are so happy to play with them and each sleep with them. We still have the smaller one to travel with us to the hospital and such, but who wouldn't love a life size Mickey.

Also Uncle Travis and Uncle Shawn got Carson and Blake a 4-wheeler. 

Carson LOVES it.

 

Both boys were very excited for it. I hope he feel good enough to ride it at least a few more times before it gets cold.

 

This is now our motto! We may no understand everything now, but we are smiling through the tears, and pushing through the hard times! I don't ever think I will "make sense" of why children get Cancer, but I do know that there is a lesson to be learned. In my heart I know Carson will beat this.

Put a smile on....

I am forcing a smile in front of my kids. Inside I scream because insurance companies are annoying and have choose what they will and will not cover for his treatment. Really? I am pissed, angry and more hurt than I have ever been. Our child is sick, and you want me to call you and have you explain WHY you are not covering it on top of dealing with him being sick? No this is not how it should be! It is not fair. But what else can I do but put a smile on my face, because if I don't my kids will see I am upset, hurt and angry and they don't need that. They are dealing with enough. Carson going for treatments and being "tuff" about the whole thing. Blake going with the flow since what other choice does he have.

 

Really when you look at this picture, he could barley hold his head up. He was so weak. I am an out spoken person when I can handle dealing with one more thing, I will do whatever is needed to get awareness, and more money for research to find a 100% cure! If we find a cure for one Cancer, we can find it for all of them; I am starting with Childhood Cancer.  No kid should have to be "sick" and no parent should have to face the fears that Brant and I are.

At least he is able to be a little normal. He enjoys riding his bike but always has to have Mickey mouse with him. He gives Mickey Mouse bandages, and always says Mickey's legs hurt when his do. He loves Mickey. I am thankful something makes him as happy as Mickey does. You would never guess this kid is sick. Our next phase of treatment will be more intense and not something I am looking forward to. I am also thankful he doesn't fully get he is "sick" and all the fears that could Intel.