Today is Mother's day, but it is also a day that I will never forget...
Three years ago today, I sat in a hospital room for going on 5 days, seeing doctor after doctor, and holding you so tight. I knew deep down the doctors were missing something, but was afraid to admit it. I held my breath as Dr. Fluchel walked into your room, hanging his head. I knew at that moment, you had cancer, though I didn't know what kind. I thank god you were sleeping, I dreaded making the call to your daddy, and then your grandparents. Looking back now on how far you have come, how strong you are, how you amaze me each day, how brave you are, what an amazing big brother your are, I am speechless. You have taught me more about life, than you will ever know! You have smiled through the some of the worse times. You have completed 1,095 DAYS of chemo and only have 69 more to go! I am so thankful you do not understand most of it, and one day I will get to tell you how strong and brave you were, and that you kicked cancers ass, showed it who was boss; and in the end you came out on top of the world!
Blake: you are on strong boy as well! Never leaving your brothers side, listening to his crazy demands, running for your life on steroid weeks, always making us laugh. I am proud of you!
Three years ago today, I sat in a hospital room for going on 5 days, seeing doctor after doctor, and holding you so tight. I knew deep down the doctors were missing something, but was afraid to admit it. I held my breath as Dr. Fluchel walked into your room, hanging his head. I knew at that moment, you had cancer, though I didn't know what kind. I thank god you were sleeping, I dreaded making the call to your daddy, and then your grandparents. Looking back now on how far you have come, how strong you are, how you amaze me each day, how brave you are, what an amazing big brother your are, I am speechless. You have taught me more about life, than you will ever know! You have smiled through the some of the worse times. You have completed 1,095 DAYS of chemo and only have 69 more to go! I am so thankful you do not understand most of it, and one day I will get to tell you how strong and brave you were, and that you kicked cancers ass, showed it who was boss; and in the end you came out on top of the world!
Blake: you are on strong boy as well! Never leaving your brothers side, listening to his crazy demands, running for your life on steroid weeks, always making us laugh. I am proud of you!
I am a proud mom to these two amazing boys! I can't imagine life with out them. I am thankful for them!
Here are new ones Letters...
Dear Carson,
You have been kicking cancers butt, for 1095 days. It has been a long three years! Looking back now, I never thought we would make it. I never knew how strong you would have to be, I never understood how much this would change your world. I am so thankful that you were so young, to you cancer is in a way "normal" you don't know much else. The amount of tears you have shed is not fair. The amount of pain you have endured is pure evil. The amount of minutes, days, weeks, months, and years you have had to give up "normal" to fight cancer, is not okay. You are my one of my heroes. You are so strong, brave, and able to endure so much, with out as much as a simple complaint.
Dear Blake,
